Guilty Pleasures

So far the first week of 2009 seems to be bringing with it the year of the Guilty Pleasure.
There are days when  I find myself in a sick game where I try to impress this person or that person by my choice of reading material or music.  Well screw that for the time being.  The [...]

Artifacts

I take my time
Unearthing the small things that she left behind.
Hand written notes.
A pill bottle.
Me.
Artifacts of her.
Proof.
She was real.
She wrote this.
She held this.
She loved me.
Items once inconsequential are now irreplaceable.
What mysteries they hold.
Mysteries of me.
Inside of her my heart started to beat.
My arms moved for the first time.
She knew me first.
I am an [...]

Some Advice to Jamie Lynn Spears

I’m the mother of a 7 year old girl who is a big fan of the Nickelodeon show Zoey 101 in which Jamie Lynn Spears plays the main character Zoey. The recent news of Jamie Lynn’s pregnancy has sort of left me a bit stunned.
If you are going to be a Mom be a [...]

The Memory Jar

Mom had passed away in August and Christmas was approaching and I found myself 5 months pregnant, sad, and in the middle of the end of a marriage. It was our first Christmas without Mom. Christmas was one of her many favorite holidays. Anytime that she had us altogether made her [...]

A Birthday Greeting

Dear Mom,
Happy Birthday!
I miss you. Yeah they say it’s supposed to get easier. Nope. Doesn’t.
I wish that I could share the silly stories of the girls and laugh with you over the crazy-wonderful things that a 1 year old can do and the amazing-brilliant things that a 7 [...]

Messy Sorrow

There is nothing linear about sorrow… The process is messy and has a mind of it’s own. Like labor. Like birth.
Susan Zimmerman